Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Not doing so good

I have some definite hormonal "baby blues" issues going on right now. I'm so so happy to have little Damien here but now I've got a crying baby, a defiant 2 yr old, and whining bored 5 yr old, a filthy house, and a husband that left me with all this to return to work. The main issues I'm having is I'm really upset that Dave went back to work already. I'm still feeling sore, I can't discipline Dominic, plus I have all this housework. My mother and grandma came by today and said they were coming over tomorrow to help with the house. It's a wreck and everytime I clean, Dominic destroys. Dave went back to work because he's all concerned about money. He thought I was ok to handle all this and I probably would be if I wasn't in pain and could chase and handle Dominic but I can't because I still am aching from the C-section.

Dominic I believe is acting worse now that he's not the baby anymore. The past two days with Dave being gone I think he's acted worse. He puts pacifiers in his mouth, he's waking up at night whining, he won't acknowledge the baby, and he won't listen to me at all. I don't know what to do with him. He not competent enough to play games or anything like that and so I think another issue is boredom. He's bored, Alex is bored because we aren't going anywhere or doing anything special. I've only left the house 3 times since we came home. Thank goodness my grandmother has came two days in a row and got Alex out of the house but then Dominic bawls because they don't take him. No one takes him anywhere because they are afraid of how he acts and what he might do like run off in a store or just act up in general.

Hopefully this will all end soon. I'm not sure how long the crying stage usually lasts. I've had headaches from crying the past two days. I just want Dave home so bad but he doesn't understand that.


Adam's Mom said...

Oh Sweetie! I am so sorry! It must be bad to have you of all people down! I wish I could be there to help with the housework, play with Alex and Dominic or just to make you a cup of tea! Feel free to vent anytime - you have been through a lot and having 3 kids by yourself, while still recovering from a C-section is tough! You have my love and support from afar! xoxo Sheri

Kirsten said...

Sounds rough! I am so sorry that things are so hard for you right now. I hope that you get the help, love and support you need right now. Take care, sending you good thoughts...

Adam's Mom said...

Just wanted to know I was thinking about you today! Sending you hugs! xoxo Sheri

Lindsay said...

(((HUGS)))!!! I wish I could just fly down there and help you out. I'm sorry that you're having a rough time. I hope that Friday passes quickly for you and that the weekend is better. Please know that we're here for you if you need us - we're really good at listening :)

Sending you lots of love,