Thursday, February 05, 2009
"I Neeeeed Help!! Speaka de English?!?!"
I feel like screaming this at my husband on a daily basis. I need some help girls, I don't know how or what but sisterly help would be appreciated. I feel so terrible this morning. Last night after watching some hot and heavy action on Nip Tuck, we made our way to bed. Like everynight (yes every night) he asked if we would be able to do anything in which I told him like 99% of the time, "I'm really tired." We cuddled up, he tried soooo hard kissing my neck and rubbing my back, it felt great......and like always.... I fell asleep. He tries and tries and tries and I go to sleep everytime. I feel so bad for him. It's to a point where he doesn't want to try anymore because he just knows. We used to do the deed 4-5 times a week, now we're lucky if it's 1. This morning before he left for work he asked for his kiss and I gave him a huge hug and told him how sorry I was in which he told me "don't worry about it, it's ok." I don't think it is at all. I feel like I'm failing him. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I don't have the energy to. He used to get so upset about this a few kids back. To a point where he'd go sleep on the couch. I think now he's just realizing it's not going to change and pouting does nothing. What do I do?!?! Don't suggest Mountain Dew right before bed because I have tried tons of caffeine and it doesn't help at all. Sadly the best (and most ackward) time we have sex now is on a Sunday morning before church while the kids are screaming and running around in the front room.