I started trying to be "positive" in a screwed up way you could say.
- 1. I've never hemorrhaged on any surgery or C-section.
- 2. I do not have a blood clotting disorder which is pretty much a death sentence in this type situation.
- 3. I do well with anesthesia, spinal or general.
- 4. My hemoglobin is usually pretty decent and high which means my blood is in pretty good order.
- 5. I've been taking vitamins religiously and extra iron beefing up my blood.
- 6. I have not been in any pain
- 7. I'm not peeing any blood which is the placenta entering the bladder.
- 8. This was caught early so the surgeons will be prepared going in which means less blood loss or chance of death.
As for me I held together the whole day. It was a LONG day. Our first appointment was at the Peri office for another Sono. She looks to weigh maybe 4 1/2 pounds which is great. Again they looked for about 15 minutes at the placenta. It's an anterior complete previa and they can not tell exactly how much has grown outside creating the Percreta. They see this mass where my bladder is but can't tell how much is really on the bladder. We thought we were doing an MRI yesterday but they told me there was a chance it would throw a negative when I really did have percreta. They give inconclusive results quite frequently so we decided not to add more worry into the situation.
After that long visit we went out to eat and then over to meet my new OB and surgeon. I found out that this will be a vertical incision which scares me as far as pain. They can not cut down there because of the placenta and bleeding factor. We asked as much as we could think of. I asked how often the sono has been wrong and she said never. :( They do about 1 case a month of this condition and usually always ends in a hysterectomy but if not I did agree to a tubal because to go through this again would probably cause my family and husband to all have strokes. It's too late to donate my own blood now and they may give me a transfusion right before surgery so that it helps. I will be awake until the baby comes and then she will tell me what it's looking like in there and if everything is as they believe I will be put to sleep for the hysterectomy. If not they will keep me awake which I'm fairly certain will not happen. I have alot of thoughts with this. I still hate when I think of my first born being asleep when she was born and not seeing her until afterwards. Now in this situation I will see her born but will be put to sleep without knowing if her organs and everything else is ok and that kills me. They basically plan on whisking her away with a NICU team right after birth. Depending how much blood I lose during the hysterectomy part, I'll get blood products then and afterwards. Surgery can be 1-3 hours depending how bad the bleeding is and how long it takes to get it controlled. She also freaked me out saying sometimes they might leave alittle placenta in and that with the hysterectomy they may have to cut some of the cervix or vagina away. Yikes. She says they try not to though.
I guess after the surgery it's just a wait and see what happens. I'm trying not to be too freaked out but January 31st will be here before we all know it. I just want this over with and move on with our 7 little ones. I know alot of people think having the hysterectomy is going to be very upsetting for me but honestly it's not. Dying and not being here for my kids is more upsetting than anything which is what all the crying I've done is about. If I'm not having kids, take all of that junk out. lol!