Thursday, August 18, 2005

I QUIT!

I'm sure everyone can guess what this is about. My job, career, or hell (as I call it) as a daycare provider. Some days it's rewarding, others I feel like I'd like to just load a gun and get it over with. Here's the deal. Your kids are perfect (yeah right) your parenting techniques are always correct. (LOL)The children you watch well they're parents just don't know what the hell they're doing and you feel like their kids are brats!! Questions I ask myself.....

Is the measley amount of money I make worth this??
How much more can I take?
Is my brain fried from hearing all these Nick Jr songs and cartoons all day?
Do I ever make sense anymore or do I talk like a preschooler now?
Will a parent just tell me soon that they don't want me watching their child?

Today has been one of those days. I try not to scream at the other kids but I do scream alot at my son and swat him a few times too. If I didn't have Dominic here, I think daycare might just be easier. When he was a baby, I do remember daycare being alittle more laid back but now I feel like some cracked out meth chick screaming, running around and twitching all day because I have kids beating each other up and ripping toys from each others hands. We can't forget the yelling I do as they about run over the 8 mth old or shriek so loud she starts screaming from having the shit scared out of her. I wonder how the heck am I going to manage this school year with Dominic, and the other 2 preschoolers plus our new baby and an 8 mth old child who screams all day for her mom's boob.

I think as a mom for the past 5 yrs, I know quite a bit. Not everything but atleast from ages 0-5 I think I know a fair amount. You learn more with each child too. I'm one up on one of my customers here as she has 2. Her parenting skills are foreign to me and I believe she's wrong most of the time but of course won't say anything because it's none of my business. Here's my problem now, this 8 mth old will not drink from a bottle. She was breastfed all summer, no bottles at all, and forgot how to drink from one. She's at my house for 10 hours a day and because of her mom's lack of knowledge (we'll just say that) to the fact that yes kids forget how to drink from a bottle when given the boob all the time, now this poor child has nothing to drink all day. She screams when I put a bottle in her mouth and hits it trying to get it out of her mouth. How sad is that. The worst part is, here i am breastfeeding my son right infront of her and I'm sure she's wondering where's my food! She's also trained her kids to sit and watch TV all day and even lets her daughter eat and drink on my couch! Yeah right! As soon as she walks out the door in the morning I have her 3 yr old bring her food and drink in the kitchen. Then her daughter cries but she knows she can't eat out there. My couch has horrible stains from her giving her daughter cups that leak everywhere.

So there's my major vent for the day. I really don't know how much longer I want to do the whole daycare thing. I've been doing it now for 3 yrs. I really haven't had too many kids, the ones here now I've been watching for over a year! I'm trying to hang on though, the only reason I don't stop is because I know how hard it is to find daycare and I really don't want to put the parents in that situation again. It's also nice dealing with the same people day in and out as to some daycare moms I know have different kids and parents each month. I don't think I could do that.

3 comments:

Adam's Mom said...

I really don't know how you do it! You have every right to vent about your work! I think you have the hardest job of all! At least with my job, I can go home, call them assholes, have a beer and call it a day. You can't really call a 2 year old or an 8 month old an asshole, have a beer and call it a day because you still have 3 rugrats and a hubby to deal with! I hope that you can one day not have to do day care - the stress you are under is crazy!
Sending you hugs!

UREWQ said...

Sabrina, ditto on what Sheri said. I have no clue whatsoever on how in the world you can manage to do so much!!!.

Yarisol

R said...

"screams all day for her mom's boob..." Oh my gosh I about fell out of the chair reading that...

Have Dave read this entry...seroiusly. You are doing too much and it is starting to be detrimental to your own kids. I think you need to think about which age you like to take care of best, and take MAXIMUM two of those kids.

This is too much for you.