I am not making squat on this Avon deal but I really don't have time to run around passing out books and calling people for orders. I tell more people about the website because it's the easiest way for me to make any money if anyone would like to buy. There people can shop at their own convenience, no hounding from me. I'm not the type to cram cosmetics in your face but if you want something, I'd be glad to help. Anyways I'm having a hard time doing nothing but playing mommy. I wake up at 6:30 every morning and the first thing that comes to mind is, Dave's at work making money and I'm not doing squat today, just playing with kids. I should be happy right? Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being home with my kids, I'm just not enjoying the lack of productivity out of myself.
We're really not doing bad on money at all, it varies month to month, but Dave is now hounding me that he'd like to see about $1K a month in the savings. Is that not some pressure? I could probably do it but I've been trying to finish paying off our minivan so we'll be debt free except the house. Well last month, I failed. When I told him that I overcharged the credit card some so I made a payment of $1300 to it you could tell he was a bit disappointed but told me not to charge that card anymore and if I do, pay it off by the end of the month which has always been the case. I have the hardest time saving money and I really wish his job had a savings plan in effect besides a 401K. Last month I tried showing him even what all the money goes to, I felt like such failure.
Even around this house I feel like a failure. I have no structure right now. I can't get everything done. I feel like maybe I'm on the Internet too much and even limiting it, there's no real change. I don't get it. I can maybe be online for 1 hour a day and nothing gets done. There's not enough hours in the day is one problem but I know another is having 2 older kids bored to death terrorizing each other and tearing up the house all day. I just can't keep up. I want to do SO MANY THINGS but I can't. Maybe if I stayed up all night but I just don't see that happening since I about fall over at 10:30. By 11 pm I'm dead to the world. Here are a few things I'd like.
- I would love to cook more, without interruptions. Homemade food. Not using my bread maker to make bread or cookie mixes for cookies.
- I want to have a majority of my house cleaned by noon.
- I would like to get back on schedule with the kids, especially nap time with Mia and Damien.
- I want to sew! I want to get back into crafts! I want to fit crafts back into my schedule.
- I want to continue to limit myself online. Unless it's FlyLady or something that helps around here, I need to stop piddle farting on here all the time
I should also mention I finally updated Dominic's site for those interested in reading.