Thursday, October 23, 2008

Sophia~ 9 Days Old

Well I wish I had something worth while to say however I don't. My emotional well-being has taken a nose dive from bad to worse. At my 1 week follow up my blood pressure was 160/100 and the nurse made me cry/talk with her for about 30 minutes. She just called me today to see how I was doing and I fell apart again to her. I have a feeling they might send her over to my house if I don't get my act together. I don't want to get into anything on here right now but it's just a bunch of compounding issues. I really haven't even told Dave about anything either although he knows I've been crying. When he's gone I'm a mess, when he's home I'm fine. Make any sense?

Sophia is doing great, breastfeeding not so great. I'm about to the point of saying screw it coming from the breast and just pump it for her. Right now she goes breast, bottle, then I pump so it's a LONG feeding process and I hate it. She's still sleeping a ton which is probably a good thing. lol I am feeling almost back to normal. Today I hardly feel anything pain/incision wise. Just some little twinges here and there on my incision but as far as bending and getting things done I'm almost back to my old self.

And could the weather be more crappier? Atleast in Kansas it's crappy! I dressed everyone in thick sweaters today because it's so freakin cold, rainy and windy. I open the door and that breeze about kills my aching nursing boobs. The mail will wait all day because I am NOT going outside.

My eyes hurt and I want to sleep so bad but i have a PT conference in 2 hours. I'll have to go cake my face with war paint to look like a halfway decent human being.


Sarah said...

Oh Sabrina, I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. You have a lot going on right now. Talking to the nurse was probably a good thing. Don't bottle it all up. I'm here if you ever want to talk.

Colleen said...

OMG! I am so sorry I have not been checking while you have been going through this! I wish I could hold your hand through all of this. Find me on myspace: manatees and margaritas and we can talk privately if you want!

Veronica said...

Oh Sweetie...I am so feeling your pain!!! I wish I was there to help you in some way. You'll be in prayers tonight. I hope things start looking up for you. Hang in there!!!

Jena9286 said...

Hang in there Sabrina!

kbreints said...

oh no Sabrina I am sorry tha tyou are feeling blue-- the poor rainy weather and cold weather does not help things!

Please be sure to talk to Dave about it... he needs to know what is going on to be able to help you at all.

Take help where you can get it. Call a babysitter to just be there to help you, so you can have a little time to yourself or with Sophia!


Cindy said...

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Lucia's Mom said...

Sabrina - I completely understand. Just be sure to be honest with your OB and your husband especially. And start calling in favours from all these people you've been helping all the time. Or order meals in more often. I know you're supermom and totally amazing, but girl, you need a break!!!

Hugs, thinking of you and I am sure you'll feel better in just a few days.

Lucia's Mom said...

btw, I was the same for the first 3-4 weeks after Emma was born. it got a LOT better after that.

Kristi Ann said...

Sweetie, please let me know if you need anything, and I have said before CALL me if you want. You are NOT abnormal in your feelings! It's o.k.
Your daughter is beautiful though, and I think she looks like you! :) Lucky thang! :)

Huge hugs and I wish we could do lunch!