Thursday, January 04, 2007

I Want My Belly Button Back But Scared To Death

I can't believe we've got only 5 days to go till this C-section. I could be writing my last posts. If I haven't said it before, I have a huge fear I'm going to die during a C-section. Don't ask me why I'm doing this again. Those last minutes before you're wheeled into surgery, I seriously feel like I'm saying my last goodbyes. It's hard and I'm a mess just ask Dave. The night before, HA! How are you supposed to sleep? You're super excited to meet your baby but then know that all can go wrong. Then you get to the hospital to get a huge run down from the anesthesiologist of all the bad things that can happen with the spinal. Last time when I explained my concerns I had with Dominic's surgery (I went completely numb couldn't feel my arms) I was told that my block went to high and that I could have stopped breathing at any time. With Damien I felt like I had a brick on my chest and couldn't breathe and I felt so much pulling so I can only imagine what's in store for me this time around. All the pain of the C though is well worth the prize in the end.

I (or well if I'm dead) Dave will update on here with pictures of her the day she's born. We can get a connection at the hospital so like last time, I'll be online. lol I'm hoping she's still a girl in there because I didn't wash up any boy clothes and um well with buying a new cute pink carseat and all. I put a pic below of the outfit I'm taking for her coming home unless I change my mind. I bought so many new baby outfits when I was about 7 months along and then with Dave's Mom living in Phoenix where they have tons of cheapo bargain shops, she's sent a ton too. Infact after I washed everything, hung it and tried putting it in Damien's closet, the bar was so full and tight I couldn't pull any clothes out with the others falling off the hangers. I had to come up with another plan for her clothes. They are now in Dominic's closet (still tight but not as bad) although he's not happy about it. He told me "no mommy! Get those out!" The boys have WAY too many clothes. That 5 foot bar in their closets are not big enough. The hangers all nearly touch.

Here's what I think she'll be coming home in:

Like the More Like Mommy Everyday? lol


Lucia's Mom said...

I'm so excited for you! Just take calm breaths and tell yourself "it's going to be fine, it's going to be fine". Sing your favourite baby lullaby as you are getting wheeled in.

Can't wait to see the pics of our newest baby!


Anonymous said...

Sabrina, you aren't going to die! I can understand those fears though.

Aren't baby girl clothes so much fun? I went a little crazy buying 12-18 this summer for Ella but I was much better for the fall/winter. Her closet and dresser are still packed from hand me downs as well as the things I bought her.

I love that pink carseat! I wanted a pink one but we couldn't justify it not know if the next baby will be a girl or not. That must be so fun when you know you are having a last baby- you can really get into the color schemes. :-)

Can't wait to see pics of your new little baby girl.

Anonymous said...

The outfit and the car sear are adorable! My kids both have way too many cloths too. I think it is just a thing with kids cloths.

Can't wait to meet Mia!

Anonymous said...

You are not going to die! Please remind me of this when it's time for me to have another c-section. I think an emerg section is easier than planned!

I can't wait to see pictures of your beautiful girl!!!

Colleen said...

I had that same experience of trouble breathing and feeling like someone was sitting on my chest during my second C-section. It was quickly resolved as they upped the meds, but my HUSBAND is the one who said he's afraid I'll die if we go for #3! Makes me scared, too, but I still want another one. I'm sure all will go well with you and your new baby. She'll look so cute in her new outfit and pink carseat! GOOD LUCK!!!