I Want My Belly Button Back But Scared To Death

I can't believe we've got only 5 days to go till this C-section. I could be writing my last posts. If I haven't said it before, I have a huge fear I'm going to die during a C-section. Don't ask me why I'm doing this again. Those last minutes before you're wheeled into surgery, I seriously feel like I'm saying my last goodbyes. It's hard and I'm a mess just ask Dave. The night before, HA! How are you supposed to sleep? You're super excited to meet your baby but then know that all can go wrong. Then you get to the hospital to get a huge run down from the anesthesiologist of all the bad things that can happen with the spinal. Last time when I explained my concerns I had with Dominic's surgery (I went completely numb couldn't feel my arms) I was told that my block went to high and that I could have stopped breathing at any time. With Damien I felt like I had a brick on my chest and couldn't breathe and I felt so much pulling so I can only imagine what's in store for me this time around. All the pain of the C though is well worth the prize in the end.

I (or well if I'm dead) Dave will update on here with pictures of her the day she's born. We can get a connection at the hospital so like last time, I'll be online. lol I'm hoping she's still a girl in there because I didn't wash up any boy clothes and um well with buying a new cute pink carseat and all. I put a pic below of the outfit I'm taking for her coming home unless I change my mind. I bought so many new baby outfits when I was about 7 months along and then with Dave's Mom living in Phoenix where they have tons of cheapo bargain shops, she's sent a ton too. Infact after I washed everything, hung it and tried putting it in Damien's closet, the bar was so full and tight I couldn't pull any clothes out with the others falling off the hangers. I had to come up with another plan for her clothes. They are now in Dominic's closet (still tight but not as bad) although he's not happy about it. He told me "no mommy! Get those out!" The boys have WAY too many clothes. That 5 foot bar in their closets are not big enough. The hangers all nearly touch.

Here's what I think she'll be coming home in:

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