We're meeting with the realtor on Saturday. I'm emailing her a list of houses we'd like to look at. I hope we fall in love with something and can place an offer and get this a going. I'd like to have Alex and Dominic start their new schools when school starts back up but at this rate I highly doubt it's going to go that fast. All these houses are in HOA's which worries me a bit because of our dogs. I think having a privacy fenced yard will help with barking since they can't see anything but any emergency vehicles they hear I know they will howl at. They are also diggers. We have so much to do around here and I'm hoping maybe Mandi (my sister) would like to come stay and help out with things, I'll pay!!! lol We're going to paint the living room, basement stairway, and touch paint over all of Dominic's works of art around the house. The yard sale will be in a week. I have so much to get rid of because I'm not hauling it to a new house. I'm selling off tons of stuff so we don't have to haul it to another house. I'm really worried this is all going to fall through like last time. We'll list our house as soon as we get this painting done, house cleaned out and other stuff done. I'm so worried it's not going to sell but I'm sure it will. It's in a really nice neighborhood and you can have livestock here. The kitchen and bath were redone, we've repainted the whole thing, added basement carpet, a new huge back porch, and a new septic system which whoever sells this house, I want to make sure they put THAT in the ad in the paper. No one wants to buy a house in the country and get screwed like we did and have to put a $6,000 septic system in soon after they buy. My mom is dealing with the same issue but hasn't replaced hers yet. Oh the joys of living in the country!

I have been a doppler addict lately wanting to find the heartbeat and I've only found it once since a week ago which was this morning. It's still really hard to find, takes forever and slips away quickly but I didn't find Damien's till around 12 weeks so finding it this early is great. As I was laying there this morning listening, I started thinking maybe I'm finding it easier because this kid is huge already. According to the books it'd be about 2 inches or so but I think I'm getting scared that I'll be having another 10 lb'er. Although I didn't have to squeeze Damien's 10 lb body through my Hoo-ha, I did encounter tons of pressure in my cooch, the I can't breathe feeling, and had horrible hemmies along with pain in my leg from a nasty vericose vein, things I never had a problem with when pregnant with the other 2 since they were both 6 and 7 lbs. I have a feeling this will be the forever pregnancy too. The next 6 months are going to feel like an eternity.

Stalling

We still haven't listed our house up for sale yet. I thought as soon as we got back we'd get right on that but on our way to Colorado we heard some pretty bad news about our town. They announced that Eaton (they make airplane parts) will be closing it's plant in the next 12-18 months which employees 450 people. CVS was supposed to be opening a store here and taking over our Osco Drug but I think as soon as they heard THAT news they decided no way, so my Grandma is losing her job. She's been there since I was a kid! She needs to retire though, she's in her 60's and everyone is constantly bugging her about it. 450 people in this town, no job. I think the house market is about to go to SHIT. Not like it's too great anywhere really but I'm starting to wonder if anyone is going to be buying after hearing this news.

In other news, I still haven't planned Damien's party yet either. I'm not sure what we're going to do. I feel bad but it seems like as the 3rd kiddo, he really gets the shaft. I only had his pics done twice in a year, I haven't planned a party, he really didn't get much for Xmas because we have all the toys and clothes in the world. Plus I think everyone is getting tired of buying for our kids in my opinion! LOL I'm thinking about just ordering pizza and having it delivered to the house and only inviting some family. Jill probably won't show up since she's still mad about my remarks in April. She made up excuses not to come to Alex's and then didn't even send her a card for that matter. Whatever. I would hate to overwhelm Damien though as he has got to be the shyest little guy I've ever met. Anyone that says hi or acknowledges him at all he tries to hide in my chest. He really didn't like it in Colorado when everyone was trying to pick him up. He was my monkey boy firmly attached to my chest. LOL

Only two more days left of Dominic's summer school after today. I'm kinda dreading it, but I'm excited that I won't have to get up at 6:30 anymore!

'Sup Momma??

Dominic's language skills are just off the wall all the sudden. As the teachers say "language EXPLOSION." He is saying so many new things, crazy things. "What you doin here?" "'Sup Momma?" "hey dude" "That my toy" "Get out my room!" "Go Away!" "I don't wanna" "Stop it Day-un!" "Thomas go down tracks!" He still parrots my questions a ton but hopefully that will end sooner or later. I know parroting is fairly common with Austism but his teachers don't think he has that at all so that's good. He also answers with a "mmmmmm" alot too which I need to ask the teachers about. Not like "um, no thank you." Just a long long "mmmmmmmmmmm" An example would be.....

ME: Dominic what did you do at school today?
Dominic: mmmmmmmmmm School Today
Me: Dominic, what did you do at school?
Dominic: yes school.
Me: What did you do there?
Dominic: Do school.
Me: What did you do? Go outside? Paint?
Dominic: Outside....paint.

Usually when he answers with yes first it means it's true such as "Do you want a drink?" "yes, drink." It's still frustrating but atleast he's getting better. The one thing he'll talk plain as day about is trains. "train go down track!" "Look momma train!" Even though he's doing so much better, I'm pretty sure when March rolls around he'll get in on the 2007-2008 school year on another IEP for Special Education. His behavior has improved as well and he seems to be more patient as we made it to Colorado without too much fuss out of him! We're not through with temper tantrums but his attitude has become a bit better when he doesn't get what he wants, we usually have to do some compromising with him though. LOL

Were Back!

We just got back yesterday from our mini vacation to Colorado Springs. We usually go to Colorado once a year since Dave has family there. It was alot of fun, the kids had a blast, except for the car drive. Let me just mention it's about 7.5 hours there and back. Alex was great, Dominic was ok, Damien was a monster. He instantly turned into this devil child screaming and wailing there and back trying to find a way out of his chair. Thomas the Tank movies occupied him for awhile, about 20 Ritz crackers, toys he enjoyed throwing them because he was pissed. His screams were similar to severe pain screams, the kind that have you running to the ER with your kid. His problem was he just didn't want in the chair anymore, he wanted out. Hell I would too but we won't be as careless as Britney Spears in this family. Dominic and Alex fought over toys, beat the crap out of each other a few times but other then that they were pretty good. All 3 slept atleast a few hours there and back.

I already knew everyone coming to this family reunion but Dave's uncle and cousin Natalie so it was great to meet them. His aunt and uncle are good friends with the neighbor who has party central on the front yard of his property. We couldn't believe it. Basically there was no grass, just dirt and tables and a bar set up with plenty of drinks and a blender. Saturday we ate lunch there and it was not good for me at all. Obviously they kept a secret that the burgers were made of ELK. I thought it had a strange taste but ate 1/2 of it. I had the worst indigestion and burped all evening. It sucked. Saturday we also took the kids to the Garden of the Gods, Santa's Workshop and The Ghost Town Museum. We thought about doing some more but the kids were so exhausted. Saturday evening we went over to say our goodbyes as we were DREADING the ride home with the kids. The whole clan of adults were across the street basically all drunk and drinking at the party central dude's house. I didn't feel comfortable at all and wanted to just get the hell out of there but we stayed for a bit and left back to the hotel. His parents came by for a bit then left so we could get to bed.

In all it was a great trip except for the car drive and my extreme nausea that kept making Dave slow down speed up. I swore I was going to lose it on the road. Sunday morning at 4:30 AM I got up and puked. After that I couldn't sleep so I started getting around so we could get back on the road. I felt ackward with how Dave's family was asking so many questions about this baby. I've only heard the heartbeat once, that's still not enough for me to believe everything is positively fine. They just wanted to talk about names and what we were hoping for etc and I would rather wait for all that talk when I look and actually feel pregnant. I'll post more pics later but here's a few of the Garden of the Gods and The GhostTown Museum.

Signs of Life Finally At 10 Weeks

I really hate the early stage of pregnancy because you can't tell what the heck is going on in there! I'm such a paranoid freak that I've still been charting temps to make sure they are high meaning the baby is doing good. I have a doppler that I bought when pregnant with Damien because I just needed to hear that heartbeat all the time to know everything was ok. Miscarriage really screws with your mind. Even in the end I swore he would die of a cord accident I was that neurotic.

So I've been getting out the doppler now for about 2 weeks and trying every few days. Finally yesterday I caught it briefly for about 20 seconds then like that it slipped away! I tried awhile after that but the 20 seconds I heard was enough to reassure me. I timed it at 150 BPM! Past kids: Alexzandra was 130BPM, Dominic 150BPM, Damien 160 BPM so right now I'm pretty sure Boy. I'd love another girl but really it doesn't matter to me. I'm not going to cry about having another boy if that's what the sono reveals. I'll just have lots of soccer, football, and T-ball games ahead of me which is alot of fun.

Because These Need To Be Shared

I'm posting these links but feel free to also click the title and visit Ava's site. I think she's sending quite the message for us all at only 15 years old.

The other day my friend called to tell me that her brother is being sent back to Iraq......the 3rd time. It's almost like Bush is going to keep sending soldiers over and over till one by one we lose them all. Hell who cares right? They're replaceable. All Bush has to do is keep offering more and more money for college on 30 second commercials on TV, that seems to work. Bastard. She's worried, I'm worried for her family. Her brother didn't think he'd be going over again since he was just there less then a year ago so he just bought a house. He's also divorced thanks to the military. Then I found out that Alex's friend Allison, her dad is being sent off to Turkey and will be gone for atleast a month or more. Mrs. BetterthanU's dh is about to be deployed also but I'm not sure where yet. Anyways I found it hard to not cry during the videos, especially the 2nd. We live in such a sad depressing world. My daughter heard Jesus Loves Me on the laptop when I played the 2nd video and wanted to see what it was thinking it was something good. I wouldn't dare show her. Our poor kids have no idea of the evil going on in this world.

http://peacetakescourage.cf.huffingtonpost.com/animations/brokenpromises.html

http://peacetakescourage.cf.huffingtonpostcom/animations/wwjd.html

Yeah, I know, I'm Cute.

Damien is so close to walking now, you can see the determination in his eyes. I think if he weighed less he'd be doing it already but the boy weighs about 25 lbs. His knees and legs are thicker then Dominic's. He's still probably a foot from being the same height but I have a feeling he's going to catch up quick. The walking is usually two short steps then to the ground he goes but he's getting the balance thing quite well. He can stand balanced without touching anything for atleast 30-40 seconds. He loves walking and pushing things though. Dominic has a huge Tonka dump truck that Damien pushes all over the house laughing at how fast he can go. Dominic is not fond that Damien likes his toy so much. There's a lot of fighting over cars, trucks, and trains since Dominic is not the sharing type.

We have just a few more days till our mini vacation. I'm hoping it's going to go well but I am worried about taking 3 kids on the road for 7 hours. That's alot of time to occupy a baby, preschooler, and one bored gradeschooler. I'm thinking about buying a converter so the kids can play the V-smiles but right now all we've planned are movies, coloring books, and the Spongebob joystick that plugs into the TV. I'm going to go to Dollar General and buy some $1 toys as well for them and they'll have a tub between them stuffed with junk to do. They sit in the back of the van so I hope there's no fighting as I can't crawl back there, we'd have to pull over. With Damien, I plan on using the links I have and hooking a ton of toys on it and hooking it over the seat so he can play with that. The rest of the trip he'll have to enjoy watching TV. He's only into the TV when we're in the van, he could care less of it at home.

Last night Alex came home from VBS (vacation bible school) and was really happy. My dad and stepmom are just thrilled that she wanted to go and that she's having a great time. We were sitting around and Alex whispered, "mommy, I need a book." I said "you need a bible?" She responded, "yeah, that book!" So I went and got her one of the bibles I have here although she can't read well so I'm not sure the point but as soon as I handed it to her she did this fist clenched in the air, pull back elbow move and said "YESSSSS!" Then she skipped to the front room. LMAO! It was so so funny and cute!!! She is loving VBS so this officially means after our trip next week she'll be bugging us to go to church which is fine but it'll be a major morning adjustments on Sundays. I've always wanted to start taking the kids but just never have. She is pretty upset that she's going to miss the last day of VBS and the program on Saturday. Poor kid.

I think this pregnancy will be the one to destroy my poor body. I haven't gained any weight but I've noticed I'm already having pain in my legs where I had vericose veins starting from Damien. I'm having to pee alot or my bladder aches so that means I'm having to get up in the middle of the night or my bladder kills in the morning. If I jump up too quick or move too fast I have all sorts of gut ripping feelings. Guess I'm lucky Morning Sickness hasn't been too bad although I'm nauseous all the time I've only puked twice. I hope that trend continues! I'm already counting down the days though till January because I'm afraid my poor body is going to fall apart if it doesn't hurry.

The One Bug That Should Be Totally Exterminated

Thank God I'm married to a bug man. I freakin hate bugs. Mosquitos, fleas, flies, locusts, wasps, spiders, roaches, beetles, they all suck but the one I can't stand the most, the absolute most are nasty June Bugs. They frighten the hell out of me and you'll hear my screams miles away when I come into contact with one.

I've always had this phobia of them. First, they deliberately attack you. The things must not have eyes because you'll hear them buzz then they slam into ya and keep buzzing while they back up and slam into you again. If you turn on your patio light, they slam into the house and leave it on long enough, it sounds like you've got some microwave popcorn going from a zillion of them hitting the house over and over. Second, the fuckers have these hard little sticky legs and sometimes they'll land on you and buzz. They don't really crawl too far but when they do their legs seem to stick and poke at your body. Last thing I hate about them is how they fall on the ground and buzz trying to flip over and it's not just one usually, it's like 20 so you've got to walk over them and hope they don't flip over and come after you.

Thankfully I've warned my neighbors in the past of this phobia and if they hear any screams from our way, I've encountered a June Bug. Last night was one of those nights I'm sure someone was sitting outside enjoying the night wondering if they should be calling 911 though. We were out taking care of the dogs when Dave went in and left me out there and around our doorway (because the patio light was on) was about 20 June bugs flipping and smacking into the siding and ground. One went in my hair by my ear and I was about 15 feet from the back door. I started screaming, jumping around and then I see Dave at the bathroom window looking out. He was laughing, I was crying. I yelled at him to get out and spray them all so I could come in because I wasn't going to be able to go by the door without being attacked. He came out, sprayed a few sprays of pest killer, and we went in. He said he was sorry for laughing but he doesn't see why they scare me so much. Asshole. And it's not like he doesn't know this already. There was a time at Sonic Drive In where they probably thought he was knocking the crap out of me in the car with my screams and violent movements as one flew in the car and buzzed down my leg in the middle of me placing my order. I jumped out of the car and we got it off the floorboard. I do make an ass out of myself sometimes.

In closing, I just wish we could kill these annoying little fugly bugs. That's the last I have to say about that.

House Hunting Again

I hope everyone out there had a great Father's Day! Ours didn't amount to much. I didn't buy anything for Dave but told him what I was going to get him. He hasn't said yes or no on it yet so I didn't buy it. He wants a $225 pressure washer but he wants to look at it first. lol Did visit my Dad and Step Dad and gave them a gift. Kids had fun doing that.

I told Dave friday night that if we're going to move, we need to do it now before Alex gets in school again so we are beginning the adventure of house selling/buying again. Hopefully without his company hounding us about moving a short period of time and all the pressure, we'll be able to do it this time. Dave's happy because it'll be a shorter commute to work for him. I should be able to start up daycare again in this area DEPENDING on if they have tons of other providers then I may have a problem. We decided on Saturday to drive to the suburb we chose around Wichita and look at housing and what it was like. The population is supposedly just 4,000 people although it seems alot busier then that. Such a small town to have a Pizza Hut Bistro, McDonalds, Sonic, and Taco Bell. My favorite part was that Dollar General and Family Dollar are side by side! How great is that! LOL It's 9 minutes away from Wichita which is perfect. While we were driving through the fancy little subdivisions we noticed one that said model homes so we stopped and went in. The builder had 3 models of the homes he's building and so we went through all 3. The one I liked the most is WAY out of our price range as a model at $203,000. The least expensive model was $163,000 which is where we'd be comfortable on price but we'd still have to add a water softener and privacy fence.

The builder told us that there are several people selling in the neighborhood and we may just want to go that way instead of buying new since the houses are all less then 5 yrs old. He has some 1/2 acre lots on the cul-de-sacs that he said would be perfect for us since this neighborhood is just crawling with kids. I guess the people with kids choose the cul-de-sacs so the kids can run around without worrying about them getting ran over. We drove around and looked at the lots he told us to and he wasn't kidding. There were kids everywhere rollerblading in the circle, riding bikes and even a few basketball goals sat out there so they could have a bball court. It was really neat and I think it's going to be a great area for the kids considering that all the kids in our neighborhood are teenagers! The houses seem to be spaced out a bit more, not much but there is a decent yard. I'm a bit worried about us having 3 big dogs. It's probably going to be a trial and error thing and we'll have to see how it goes. If we get complaints then I'll see if I can get Ceasar placed with a rescue and he should be fairly easy to adopt out since he's really pretty good just overly excited.

Our next step is to get incontact with a realtor on our house although I don't want to list it till I can do some serious cleaning out of extra junk around here and we're thinking at the end of the month having a huge yard sale. I'm a bit nervous how this is going to go. Alex has given us an A-OK after we visited the school and the kids checked out the playground equipment. Guess that's all that matters right? lol

Here's some of the houses for sale in this neighborhood we have chose.
http://www.jpweigand.com/FullListingInfo.aspx?ei=58268 This one we'd have to finish the basement first but this is the same as the model that I liked the most. It was so open and felt huge! It's on a cul-de-sac!

http://www.jpweigand.com/FullListingInfo.aspx?ei=62039 This one is ready to go! I love the pics on this one. Tons of room but this was the same as the cheapest model he builds and it has a split stairway to the basement and the reason I didn't like it. I'm afraid we'd be restricted on what we could put downstairs. It's also on one of the main roads in this neighborhood, not on a cul-de-sac like the man suggested.

http://www.jpweigand.com/FullListingInfo.aspx?ei=59472 Same with this one, no cul-de-sac and this isn't like the other models. This must have been an earlier build he did.

http://www.jpweigand.com/FullListingInfo.aspx?ei=56677 This is in the same area just a different subdivision. I really like the way it looks but the fact that there's water behind kinda scares me with the kids. Fence would have to be put up the first day we lived there!

http://www.jpweigand.com/FullListingInfo.aspx?ei=57505 Same subdivison as the last but no finished basement. That'll fly till the 4th kiddo would come. lol

There were a bunch more for sale by owners but I felt like such a 'tard driving around in this neighborhood because OBVIOUSLY I'm not smart enough that Ct- means court in other words means DEAD END. I kept going in the cul-de-sacs and having to turn around, some I think I may have went in twice. It made an interesting Saturday though, especially after not changing Damien for quite awhile and giving him a ton to drink while we looked he peed out of his diaper on his clothes and I forgot to bring an extra outfit. He rode home in a diaper.

Home, Home On The Range

Because I have nothing else to say........

It's Harvest Time

Combine wheel tracks on cut Wheat
Ok if you come to my house right now either expect that you'll.....

1. Have allergies really bad all the sudden
2. Follow Grain Trucks on these roads forever since it's too hard to pass 'em.
3. Want to pull over somewhere and watch these massive machines twirl away at the Wheat

It's been an interesting, noisy, fun to watch week as the farmers are cutting their wheat. The housing addition we live in is surrounded by wheat so there is truck traffic everywhere right now. Every year we know when our neighbor is cutting by a certain buzzing noise that we can hear in the house and we go outside and watch. The kids think it's pretty cool. I remember as a kid we'd go watch my uncles cut the wheat on the farm and play in the grain trucks letting the wheat berries run through our toes. Those were fun days.

Morning Sickness Has Offically Arrived

I spent 5 minutes of my morning today overtop my kitchen trashcan puking while holding a gallon of milk in one hand and an empty sippy cup in the other with Damien in the highchair pounding on the tray, staring at me screaming and grunting for his drink and Alex saying "mommy you forgot to get me a drink" while eating her toaster strudel. Can we say, what the hell have I done?? Thankfully this all happened minutes after I got Dominic on the school bus and off to school.

I'm seriously wondering how I'm going to pull this off in January adding another to the bunch. Damien is still pretty needy and the boys are both getting in a jealous state as to who can get my attention more. Like last night Dominic was pushing Damien to the floor because he wanted on my lap so Damien stood back up and tried pushing him back then tried biting him and pounded on my legs for me to pick him up. I'm hoping to have Dominic potty/pooped trained by then so we'll only have 2 in diapers instead of 3 so that'll help but I wonder if he'll mature more in 6 months because right now he's still hard to manage everywhere, doesn't listen to anything I say and he and Alex fight all the time about everything.

Dave spent from 8-10PM asleep on the couch last night while I did bedtime snacks, baths, and put the kids to bed. Same with the night before. He's been so tired from work with leaving around 5-6 AM, I don't blame him but ya know being pregnant makes you pretty tired and I haven't been able to nap at all. I remember when I was pregnant with Alex I took a 3 hour nap after work every night but with the boys I don't think I even got to since I took care of her, and now it's flat impossible unless he's home. It just seems though that he's helping less and less around here and I'm so sick of doing everything with the kids, house, meals, laundry, bills, I'm pretty much incharge of everything but wiping his ass. He atleast does that himself.

I'm just feeling pretty defeated already and we don't even have a baby here yet. My mind is all over the place with different thoughts. Maybe I should start a paypal donation button for the freakin housekeeper/nanny I would love to have. lol

New Pictures

First T-Ball Game

Alex's 6th Birthday Party

Q- What Do You Do if the Swimming Pool Is Too Cold??

A- Use the Hot Tub

Surfin' The Waterfall- the kid highlight of the Hot Tub

Pool Noodles are So Much Fun!

Damien's Wrinkled Feet after a relaxing day in the Hot Tub

Blabbin about Everything

I've been on the edge of my seat constantly checking into a Yahoo board I'm part of. It's a board of us gals who miscarried all around the same time 2 years ago and one (Carey Ann) has recently done her first cycle of IVF. Today would be 9DPO and she's about to start testing. I'm so excited for her and I know this is it and her son will soon have sibling in 07! It's funny how excited we can get for people we don't even know. The power of the internet. Please be rooting and praying for her!

Dominic's bus driver called at 7 AM this morning and said she would come 10 minutes later and pick him up at 7:30AM. I so wish he had his old bus driver back that picked him up at 8. It's killing the both of us getting up at 6:45 to get him ready for the bus. With Alex it's different because she listens, falls asleep at a decent time, gets ready but Dominic it's like waking a zombie from the dead and trying to get him to come back to life. He's so tired and I have to sit next to him and constantly say "eat some more, the bus will be here soon!" He's been great about peeing on the toilet every morning though. She's driving kids to other summer school programs so his school gets out at 11:30 and she doesn't show up till 12:50 with him!!! Yeah that's a long bus ride but he's getting his nap everyday so that's good I guess. I know I was looking forward to summer school but now I'm ready for it to be over with.

Yesterday afternoon I was working with Dominic potty training and took him in the bathroom but his reward stickers were missing. I've been having things disappear around here occasionally and I suspected it was Lexi the little 6 yr old I watch so I sent the kids out in the backyard to play so I could check her bookbag and see what was in there. Guess what I found? I found a little Barbie paddleball thing that belongs to Alex and 2 sheets of Dominic's stickers. This does not surprise me at all since I caught her with Alex's hair barrettes once and I saw her trying to sneak a Hello Kitty necklace once too. SO when her mom showed up the kids were still outside and I told her mom. I told her that I suspect she's probably taken other things as well since I had told her mom about the barrettes that one time. I told her not to say anything to her about the incident here but maybe just explain to her that taking things is bad before she ends up doing it at the stores like my sister's kiddo has. I told her about Madison and how she's actually went back in the store with my sister to give back things that she's lifted and how we wouldn't want Lexi to get like that. LOL Her mom was a bit shocked but said she would talk to her somehow about it. I told Dave that I'm going to start sending her somewhere with Alex when she's here so I can quickly go through her bag daily. lol

Lastly, I'm seriously thinking that I'm not going to be able to do this when this baby gets here. Usually I'm alone with bedtime duties, Dave doesn't help too much except to put Alex in bed. Last night I got them all bathed and there was crying, screaming, fighting, running all going on at once and I just wanted to bawl. Dave was doing something for work on a spreadsheet. I can't imagine adding an infant wanting to constantly eat to this mix of chaos at night. Damien is doing better and going to bed at 9 without much crying now since I started giving him a sippy cup with some milk. Eventually I'll just switch it to water like I do with the other kids. Alex has a straw cup of water and Dominic has a sport sippy of water they take to bed. I think Baby Tad is about to die soon. His hand button that counts up to "6 minutes till night night" is not working well. I've had that thing for 5 years now! I love Baby Tad, he was the BEST FREAKIN GIFT EVER!! So if his "6 minutes till night night" finally goes out, I'll be buying another. Anyways I just hope that I'm cut out for 24 hours a day with 2 babies and I'm hoping Dominic will be much more mature by January.

Nothin' Like Ending The Weekend With a Big Finale

Check back later for pics, I can't find that stupid cord for my camera. Grrrrrr......

We have been running all over the place the past few days with the T-ball Game, Alex's party, the neighborhood get together we had, yesterday was actually pretty quiet and we were home most of the day. The kids played in the pool, even Damien who thought that was a hit, and I did housework. I tried chopping these horrible mulberry bushes around our property and made a nice burn pile. By last night I was tired, laying around, and my Dad called. I broke the news pretty much to everyone Thursday, a day after my appointment that I was pregnant, but hadn't told Dad. I thought maybe he'd heard from someone and just called to see if he could get it out of me but he wanted to find out if Alex's outfits he and my stepmom got her for her birthday fit. Finally before we hung up I decided to tell him, I was dreading it because I knew he would have something to say. Sure enough.

Me: "oh I should probably tell you our good news, are you sitting down for this one?"

Dad: "what's that?"

Me: "well I'm pregnant again, we decided to try for another!"- Complete lie but said this to avoid any planned/unplanned questions.

Dad: "Sabrina, oh boy. Was this planned?"

Me: "Yes."

Dad: "What's David think about this whole thing."

Me: "He's happy, he told all our neighbors at our BBQ tonight. He's shocked it happened so fast." - Ok he did tell the neighbors and he was happy when he told them but he was just plain pissed in the beginning finding out I was pregnant again.

Dad: "You know you guys aren't thinking very long term here, you do realize that kids cost money and you've got a lot of years down the road to be paying for their expenses. You keep having more kids and your 'short changing' the others. I don't think you have enough of a car, enough of a house to be having another. I'm happy for you both though."

Me: "The kids aren't going to be shorted on gifts or sports any of those things if that's what you're thinking. And I have a 7 passenger minivan and that Ram seats 6 so we're ok on vehicle space. I know we'll have to eventually do something about the house since we only have one bathroom but the boys will be ok sharing a room."- when Damien was born Dad used to always say 'I shared a room with my brothers' (he has 4!!!) Basically saying we should put the boys together.

Dad: "I don't know, I'm happy for you though. I just don't think you guys are thinking very clearly. Well I'll let you go so you guys can finish cleaning and get to bed."

Me: "Alright, I'll talk to you later. Love you, Bye."

Oh THAT was fun, let me tell ya. I tried to talk to Dave about it afterwards and all I got from him was "I don't want to hear about it." So breaking the news on #4 was about as ACKWARD
as it could get. Alex told Dave's mom which Dave was NOT happy about because when he was handed the phone from Alex, she started asking questions. I knew the planned question was going to be coming out of all the parents mouths and so I had begged him to say it was. When his mom asked he told her it was planned, but it sounded so obvious that he was lying I'm sure she knew he was. My Mom was on cloud 9 saying "oh it's going to be another girl! I'm so excited!!!!! Was this planned?" Geeeeez us! I told her it was one of those If it happened it happened things and it happened right away.

Other then dealing with a very fake congrats from Dad, the weekend went really well. Alex had her first T-ball game and WoW! That was awesome. I can't wait to have the boys in sports too! LOL She did great and since they are so young the games are for fun, no score kept but the opposing team's coach was acting like it was a major league game the way he was screaming and riding those little boys. He would scream "GO GO GO GO!" or "what are you doing!?! Hit the ball, not the T!" It was funny and Alex in the outfield was just staring at him like he was from another planet. She was paying more attention to the coach screaming at his team then the ball flying towards her. She did run 2 bases with one hit and then eventually got to home and 3 bases on another hit.

Saturday morning we had her birthday party at the park. We did it from 10-12 which was great because it was cool. The kids played in the Bounce Around we own and played on the park equipment. They had cake and icecream, she opened her gifts and then they got little bags to take home. It went really well. She had 8-9 kids there that she's friends with. Dominic did great, very well behaved, didn't try running off or anything! Damien enjoyed being held by different people which surprised me since he normally has an ass attack when someone picks him up and tries to reach out to me to take him back.

Saturday evening we had our 1st annual neighborhood BBQ. Since I hadn't been home to make a covered dish I ran to the store and grabbed a coleslaw and mac salad which turned out to be a total waste as they were hardly ate at all! It won't expire for a week but there's no way I can eat all of it. We met some of our neighbors, they loved the kids. We are the only ones out here that have young kids besides 1 other family. The rest have them but they are 18 and older! There's around 30 houses in our subdivision. We all introduced ourselves and found out how long we've all lived out there. One couple have been out there for 30 years, we've only been here for 5. It was interesting though. We each have about an acre plus of land so we don't normally run into each other often unless you stop when driving or are walking and someone is working in their yard. The people who organized it had lived in the neighborhood for 16 years and only knew a few of their neighbors nearby. We've lived here for 5 and know who lives at atleast 12 of them. I think they had gotten a bad rap out here because of their boys. I know the Cops have went to their house a few times due to fireworks.

1st OB Appointment

The appointment went well. I was really really hoping to do an early sono but she seemed to be unphased by my lack of symtoms (no sore boobs, throwing up) and said maybe I'm going to get lucky this time. Grrrrr..... Did the weight, blood pressure, urine, and pelvic (fun fun!) but it was then that she could tell that my uterus was on target for about 8-9 weeks so she thinks everything is fine. We tried to hear the heartbeat but by the end of my appt Damien was fidgety and getting really pissy so we tried for about a minute and gave up. I'll keep trying with my doppler. I think I'll be able to get my blood work results back soon. Alot of the nurses were really excited to see me back and to see Damien. Alex was there too and she had no idea the whole time what we were doing there. When we got there she said "Oh we're going to this Doctor?" But she didn't realize that she's a baby Dr. I told the nurses she didn't know why we were there either so they'd talk about what I should be doing for the baby and then say "do you know why you're mommy is here yet?" Finally when we left I said "Alex! You're going to have another sister or brother!" She said "A Sister!" and took off skipping to the car. I then had to tell her that we don't get to pick what we get so it might be a boy this time too. She was in complete denial when we told her Damien was a boy. Poor kid took it hard!

My OB was really happy and it struck me as weird! I thought for sure she'd be all upset to see my pregnant so soon after my last C-section but she was ok and then said something completely strange. She asked if we were going to do a tubal this time around and explained uterine rupture to me about the umpteenth time but then said "it is something that can happen but look at me I've got 5." So I'm wondering if she was talking about herself awhile back when she said something about she knew someone that had had 5 C-sections?? You don't normally get that personal with your Dr's so I didn't ask. She also said my C-section scar looked great and you could hardly tell I'd had one and I told her thanks and it was all because of her great handy work. So overall it went well and I go back July 5th, Damien's birthday! Never thought I'd be pregnant and going to an OB appt on my little guy's 1st Birthday.

Nervous

My first OB appt is in 2 hours. I am so nervous about it I feel like I could puke! I've been snacking this morning so I don't pass out when they take all that blood. I've done it in the past so I've been told to eat before coming to my appointments. I hope they do any early sono but I'm not too sure if they will since everything has been fine so far. We'll see.

How Does Your Garden Grow??

Tell ya what! I bust my ass year after year. I buy flowers from Walmart, Home Depot and they all seem to die and look like crap. I mean seriously, LOOK LIKE CRAP.


However the past 3 years now I've noticed we've had some nice hardy crops of pot plants popping up like we're professional Weed growers. We took them out last year but they're back again. Why can't my flowers and plants look this lush and colorful?? I would just die to have 6 Ft Tomato plants like these. I can't figure out if Mother Nature just loves growing Pot plants more then pretty flowers? Oh the joys of living in the country.

Damien's 11 Months Old!

I was invited to an online playgroup so I signed up even though they are in Wichita. I figure I could go to a few of the get togethers on my days off this summer, uhhhhhh not so fast. This morning at 7:30 am as I was sitting down on the computer I heard someone at my front door. It was K and K's mom dropping them off. She informed me that she'll need me till 3 on M, T, Th and Friday till around 12. Then next week she'll need me on Th and F and a few days the week after that. She said after the 3rd week of June, she shouldn't need me till July "occasionally." I told her I could watch the kids when she needed me to but I didn't think it was going to be all the freakin time! D told me just to act like we're not home (lock the doors and be very very quiet) if she just shows up like she did this morning.

I have to atleast act like I'm home though till Dominic catches the bus around 7:25 for school. This morning is his first day back till the end of June then he'll go back mid August. I was so happy to see that bus this morning. OH HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY! School has become my bestfriend with him. I need that morning break from him and he needs it from me. He's off the walls with energy from morning till night, I can't even tell you the last time he took a nap. I'm hoping he'll take one today though since he got up at 6:45.

This weekend he lost all his Thomas Trains from throwing one of the metal ones and hitting Alex in the forhead. It instantly turned into a huge welt and started bleeding. Parenting Tip #4,523- Don't ever let your GIRL see her Boo Boo. As soon as she saw this huge massive swelling blob with blood rushing out of it on her head she started screaming even more to make it sound like she was indeed dying from the injury. After a hour with ice on it, it did start to go down some. Today it's flat with a red slit and starting to bruise. (sigh)

In other news Damien is 11 months old! WOW! Time has sure flown by. Everyone loves his new haircut. He hasn't any real new milestones just a few. As soon as I say "if your happy and you know it......" he starts clapping his hands together. He also knows the word dance and will start dancing which by the way I have a new dance video in the making look for it soon. He cruises along furniture super fast but still will not stand unassisted or try to walk at all. His favorite foods are all normal people foods. He loves Townhouse crackers, Club crackers, sliced American Cheese, Shortbread cookies, applesauce, ice cream, chopped hotdog, poptarts, peaches, banana, french fries, rice, ramen noodles, those fruit oatmeal packets and cherrios. I try to feed him things that he can pick up but still feed him something usually once or twice a day with the spoon. I can't believe I need to start planning his party soon. WOW.

Only 2 more days till my first appointment. Bit scared but pretty positive things are going well in there. I think after this appointment I may start breaking the news to relatives. We'll see! I'm 8 weeks now, we were going to wait till 12 but my lower gut is getting too big again for my shorts and I've had to drag out my maternity stuff as of yesterday. Yep I'm starting to grow.

He Got His First Hair Cut!!

BEFORE

AFTER


Daddy did it tonight, longest setting on the clippers. Dominic's we usually go shorter. It's so cute and now he doesn't have all those long scraggly hairs but I'm sure everyone will give me crap because they loved how his hair just stood up. Complete strangers would come up and say "I love his hair!" because is just stood straight up in the air and was like an inch long. Now it's even and short. He's getting to be such a big boy now!

I'd like 5 Chicken Sandwiches, A Meatball Sub, and Enchiladas De Pablano Please

Ugh, I feel so sick this morning. I constantly feel like I need to eat eat eat or I'm going to get sick. McDonalds, Subway, Carlos O'Kelly's anyone??? (sigh) I wish! I'm trying to eat like normal so I don't turn into a bigger cow then what I already am! LOL My weight right now is all over the place. I can gain or lose 5lbs either way by tomorrow. It's just fluctuating everywhere but I really haven't gained any weight since it always goes back down. Dunno.

Today is my first day, no daycare kids, in a LONG time. It'll be short lived though as of Monday, I'll have Lexi back and the girls for the day. I'm going to work my butt off around here so when D gets home I can say "see how much I can do minus daycare kid??" The boy Nick I watch is on his way with his parents back to Ohio. Their Kansas stay is now over. He was the most work and into everything around here. He also climbed gates, climbed out of the playpen and was always messing with the Xbox. I constantly was onto him. It'll be so different not having to say "No Nicholas!" every second of the day.

Damien will be the next trouble maker around here though. He's really starting to get into things by crawling around but no signs of walking yet. Hard to believe since the other two were walking by 10 mths. He'll let go of things but no steps. His newest thing to do is crawl on the floor while pushing a toy truck or car and make noises for it. It's so funny yet so freakin cute! He'll go in turbo speed around the floor in circles with one vehicle in particular that he loves. I need to camcord it.

My first Dr's Appt is next Wednesday. The kids are set to go to a friend's house and I'm ready to make sure everything is going well in there. We still haven't decided when we are telling our parents. The only one I really worry about flippin out is my Dad because he's just like that but he had 4 brothers and his Mom had a stillborn daughter so it's not like he came from a small family. Knowing him, he'll express concerns about paying for 4 and housing 4 kids since we still only have 1 bathroom! I'm not sure what D's parents will say since they live in AZ it's not like they can really say or do much except over the phone. I told Dave that when his parents come to visit in September, they're going to want to stay in a hotel instead of stayin here. By that time Damien will be into everything, Dominic is constantly jumping off the walls, and Alex is always bugging about something. The house is always a bit messy, there's always some screaming or crying going on, the bedrooms are hard to walk thru with the toys everywhere, and dinner is always something I can make in 30 minutes. They'll definitely want to stay in a hotel, I'm sure.